ENDINGS AND BEGINNINGS
Driving down the mountain, the New year sun was high up in the sky, solemn and cogent without a speck of white. The church bell resonate in the distant and the sound of children’s laughter glisten in the air about. The wind tousled my hair, brushed my skin; it was beginning to be an ordinary day……………until out of the mundane came the magnificent. Then, aware but knowing nothing in particular, suspended in emptiness, I had a realization. At that blunt juncture, staring at the road ahead, I woke up to the possibilities of life. That ironic moment of epiphany when I reeked of alcohol from the last night party with my hair smelling like an ashtray, my eyebrows have migrated to my forehead and my eyeliner have smudged all over making me looked like a raccoon. Ordinary moments, each one having hold on my becoming.
That was 6 days ago. And today I am grateful – that God being the gentleman He is, knows my heart. Today, I am thankful for every favor I have received which I do not deserve, and for every punishment I deserve, which was withheld. Today I am at peace with myself. Thank you Lord for endings and beginnings.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity. – Gilda Radner.
AN EULOGY TO PRIVATE AFFAIRS
May the road rise up to meet you, Sweet Love
May Heaven’s Gate protect you always
And If you have ever loved me, do not weep: for I am free
Be happy that we had so many years
‘Ours’ was never built to last; God has set us free.
If our parting has left a void, Darling,
Laugh, love, work and play;
Do not close your heart to love –
And in time you’ll realized that
His Grace alone is enough to heal us.
I seek forgiveness for the many wrongs that I’ve done
And in doing so I forgive you for the same.
I have loved you with all my heart;
But now I must travel alone –
God broke our hearts to prove that he only takes the best.
So I thank you for all the good times –
The laughter, the prayers and most of all – for the love
It was sweet while it last but God has a plan for us
So do not lengthen the days with undue grief, Sweetest BABE –
Instead lets thank God for endings – the celebration of beginnings.